Feeling down
Posted on | January 21, 2009 | 4 Comments
My apologies for not posting more during January, it has been one of those months. And you guessed it I became ill again – yes again, also I sprained my foot. So you ask why I am feeling down, well let me tell you. I am feeling down because my efforts at the Gym have not been as productive as I would have liked, and my food intake has been atrocious.
There have been that many setbacks to my progress that I am slowly losing faith, in myself and in my ability to once again start to make progress. I know you have heard it all before and I agree it sounds like a cop out.
I have just been agonizing over it, blaming myself, blaming others. It is honestly a vicious circle. The good news to this whole thing is that I finally got my period. And it was actually under two months that I had it last. I think the Gym is helping me with that.
My fitness has improved quite a bit, however my weight is the same – well from what I can gather. It is a terrible thing to always fall ill or injure yourself and not be able to do the things you would like for example – the Gym. I feel like I am on a roller coaster.
The one person that has been very encouraging is Julie my personal trainer, she said that I am doing really well, but even though she says that I don’t feel that way. I even got that frustrated with my foot that I did the step up; I made it higher and hurt my foot again. I really kicked myself over that stupidity.
I was so impatient that I stuffed myself up. I guess I just keep trying and do my best not to hurt myself or get sick and I should be fine right? If anyone knows a good place to go online to create a meal plan for the week, please leave your comments with the details.
You know I feel a lot better now that I talked to you all about this; sometimes getting stuff off your chest really helps. Please stay tuned as I am working on something that you will really enjoy.
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January 31st, 2009 @ 1:14 am
Are you in melbourne? I dont know if you would be open to the idea, but have you heard about getting a lapband? I got one in august 2007 and have lost 70 kilos. Its been my life saver.
Feel free to email me anytime kellie.newson@bigpond.com
February 1st, 2009 @ 12:45 pm
Hi Kellie, yes I am in Melbourne. I was open to the idea and even spoke to my doctor. We both agreed that it was a means to an end and wouldn’t solve what was going on in my head. This is really the thing that I need to work on and change, I have made progress with that. You know I even go swimming now after 20 years of not going. That in itself is a be acheivement. I am starting to enjoy life despite all the set backs that I have and you know even though I feel down sometimes I can still laugh about it all. Thank you for your suggestion, however I am trying other things before I resort to surgury. Keep in touch and let me know how things have been for you since you lost your weight. Please email me at kat@big-girls-dont-cry.com any time I am always happy to keep in touch with my readers.
February 27th, 2009 @ 12:23 pm
Kat,
Don’t give up – you will find a ‘way’ that will suit you just dandy. It may not be the ‘way’ you are into now so maybe if you just tried to 1/2 what you are doing until your heart and health improve.
February 28th, 2009 @ 2:37 am
Thanks Cathy, I am getting there. You are right, I am in the process of trying new things. I am feeling quite stubborn about it, like I won’t give up. Thanks for your support.