I have put on another 1 kg this week and I am getting more and more depressed about it.  I am pretty ill at the moment with Gall Stones, so I am constantly in pain and or feeling like I will vomit.  Also because of this illness I am not as regular as I was before this happened.  Therefore when I eat everything is sitting at the top of my stomach.  Not a good feeling and hence the reason I probably put on weight, not to mention I haven’t been working out.  I know after the operation I will recover and get back into my routine but in the meantime I am worrying about putting all I have lost back on. 

You can imagine all the progress you made only to go back to what you were before.  I will be extremely depressed if this happens.  I must be stricter on myself and not eat junk out of worry and pressure and fear.  These habits are very hard to brake and you really have to be on top of it all the time, every day, every minute and not let your guard down.  If you do the unthinkable will happen you will gain weight and fell very black inside.  I never want to feel that ever again, as long as I live